Ring

Nope, definitely not influenced by Lord of the Ring nor The Hobbit.
All these time I always wanted a ring, especially after lost the one given by my mum, which its given by her tauke, a souvenir from Korea. While seeing all the girls around me especially those girls that have boyfriend, they all have a ring, though not sure its cheap ring or not, its given by their boyfriend or not, but the fact is, they all have ring. So, I want too.

Two days ago went to south city, saw one of the tapak jualan there have sell pretty rings, and its really cheap. So I bought one for myself. =D I don't want to ask my boyfriend to buy one ring for me, and I don't have the patience to wait him to buy one for me. With my own money own effort, I give myself a ring. I won't tell anyone about its price, cuz I want it to looked more expensive than its price. ^^ And in front of people I wont tell that I bought it myself, cuz normally people will guess its a gift from my bf, so be it. Why he didnt want to buy a ring for me when I want it so bad? Haha, maybe I didnt tell him? Or maybe he simply dont want to buy. Or maybe, leave it to imaginations, maybe. ^^ Suddenly remember the scene where Mr Bean's gf want a ring as Xmas present but end up getting hook in a ring's box. xD

This ring really make me feel happy. ^_____^ . Haha. Well woman likes shiny little thing(vampire is not little shiny thing though) ^^

My Precious ! My Precious! xD

2013 Calendar (Malaysia)

2013 is just around the corner, you might having some trouble to get free calendar when you buy something from the shops in these days. Well, unlike the old time, now we have internet, where to get a calendar is not a problem anymore. As a substitute to those horse racing calendar, a simple one might come in handy too!

You can download from the link here:
there is two version of it, slightly different to suit my own taste actually xD
2013 desk calendar(1)
2013 desk calendar(2)
or you can edit one on your own at time and date's website.

Not to forget, HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

Purpose

Few days back someone ask me to try apply the conference trip to Osaka, Japan that going to held in next year around April. Minimum requirement of course the basic pointer thing. Well, ya I know my accumulated pointer for time being still slightly above 3. Well just slightly above, thats all. He added:" you can speak and read chinese, so it would be advantage for you to go there." Tempted, really.

Actually, Japan indeed is my dream country to visit since decade ago. One of the attractive point I enter Uni was also the chance to be exchange student or even have chance to visit other country that everyone dream to. I already forget the dream since long, and after know the real expenditure(though mostly the trip is sponsored), it just demotivated me. Ya, I know, if nobody sponsor, then you yourself have to find yourself a sponsor. And even if there's already sponsor, still, you will need about one thousand plus to pay this and that which I don't know what's that. Even before you step there, few hundreds to thousand ringgit already spent, for a person like me, without support from family, where I have to fully depends on JPA scholarships and some part time job to live on, I really rather to give that chance away.

With that hundreds to thousand ringgit, I can take my beloved mum to a nice dinner, buy her some supplement and will able to put a shower heater in the shower room which my brother promised to put one but never. Furthermore, that sum of money I can use as my installment to buy my first car or even house in the future. Sigh. Last time my mum even say she want to try take driving license in Malaysia so that she can drive motor / car legally. Well, if few years back I would say to her: "no need la..., here many auntie2 uncle2 also dont have license.." or " it would be difficult to pass the computer test if you didnt study and read and click the mouse speedly(my mum click mouse very slow one, I taught her before)" See? You must think I'm such a bad daughter, how could I discourage my own mum to do things she want? Well, that was past, now since she have nothing to do at home, and even start to work at factory, she can earn more money than spend it, so I just say: "Ma, you just whatever that you want to do la ok." As a daughter I learnt that this time I should act like she did - like how she let me do everything I want since kids. She never say: tak payah la buat ni, nanti.. (negative thing). Except one, she didn't let me to join pancaragam team like my sis did. Cuz she know she'll tired to send me to training and pick me up middle of the nite(training usually end very late).

Ok, well back to the story, the purpose. The original purpose I want to go to other country, simply have a walk, be a tourist, take some picture, eat some rare food, see and communicate with foreign citizen. I still can accomplish it without need to join the conference/exchange student programme. In future after I work, I can have my own money, buy tickets from AirAsia, arrange my timetable, fly to another country~ Ok, some might say, if I have the experience during my student life, it might colours up my resume. Haha, its okay. Really, its okay. Of course somewhere deep in my heart, I will say, I really want to go. If given a chance who don't want? Anyway, I don't need that kind of glamour now. Not now.

Anyway, I already bought two tickets to Surabaya many months ago. Will fly to my mum's kampung next month. =) Not for conference/academic activity, but to relax myself and make my mum happy. How great will that be~ I went to Indonesia once only, that time I was in standard one, in the year 1998, ya I know economic crisis that time, but somehow that's the last luxurious life of my family, with my late father. After that trip everything just fall apart. Nevermind lets skip it. =) Hopefully this coming trip will go smoothly and will have safe journey during two weeks there. Oh ya, will see my family there, maybe you guys don't know, I have another sister there, biologically, she is the anak sulung of my mum, the kakak of my big brother. Means actually I have 4 siblings, I'm the 4th! In my memory of 8 years old, she's very tall and have very fair skin. She have two daughter, means actually total up I have 3 niece, 1 nephew. And I think the eldest girl- Cindy already about 13 or 14 years old. WOW~ XD

Ah, can't wait.

Saw this when hang clothes

 

Actually I have this clothes since secondary school. Surprise when saw the "kooki" sounds and pronounce almost the same as the "kookie~" of Kim Joong Kok in Running Man~ (^^)/

想念

好想好想你

好想看到你

好想握着你的手

好想跟你在一起

好想不用在意他人眼光，紧紧握着你，继续抱着你，深深吻着你

好想跟你一起浪走天涯，享受自由，拥有世界。

12

12 months

Memories

Past.

Present,

Future?

8,9,10,11

Facebook Twitter

Blog

Books

Knowledge.

4,5,6,7 sweaty part. I mean healthy part!

4) Jogging
He really likes to jog while wearing his Sony Walkman MP3, listen to his favourite songs. Remember the first time he brought me to Tasik Cempaka to jog. After 2 rounds, he asked me why I didn't sweat a bit(actually I did!), while he sweating like just came back from swimming. hahahaha

jog jog! good for your health and can slim down!

5) Dumbbell.
He bought a pair of dumbbells months ago and did trained until his biceps big big one. Haha. That time he even drink the protein drinks to grow muscles. See how good he trying to look fit and tough! haha. But now no more ledi~ and his spare tyre also getting "safer". Hahaha. Its does look cute though. But poor KBF gonna suffer a lot. xD Hopefully he can manage to get back his ideal body weight just like when matric time(?), no need grow muscle like popeye, just with healthy weight is enough. I never seen him in slim size before, just in picture got la~ And ya,hopefully he will be more careful while doing his dumbbell workout, don't get injured again!! I will sad la later on~

6) Basketball.

He pernah wakil matric to play in match leh~ So can guess how good he is in playing basketball, though I've only seen it in video(The family video I accidently watched.). kehkehkehkhekhekhe. If I'm his junior in school, I sure will scream while holding pom poms(I joined cheer-leading team in school,once upon a time). Hope to see he play basketball in the future, maybe I can ask him to teach me also.heheheheh *shy* This is all influence from SlamDunk!!!! Kyaaaaa~

 

heehee.

7) Swimming.
 I never know how to swim before this, and he patiently teach me step by step. From how to float, breath out, bend-kick-close thing. hehe, Until now I'm still in the process of learning, well at least I'm not afraid of playing in the big swimming pool by myself anymore～～～～ weeeeeee~ ^_^ Thanks Coachiee~

swimming is a very fun thing to do~~~ =D

1,2,3

1) He didn't like to have any kind of beans in his meal. Except for once, he ate it voluntarily, just once. Haha. And I tricked him before.
Me: “Ahhhhh~"
Him: *thought its meat* *open mouth- Ahhhh* *bite* *sad face* -_-"

2) Cloud 9-holic. He really like to eat it ~ Bought whole tank of cloud 9 and eat it over the night, never share any with me. =_= Yesterday he says was going to bring me some but forgotten. . . forgotten. . . =_= never mind la.

3) Meat lover (especially mutton and beef).

let it be gulai

or goreng, he simply love it all ~

Muahahaha. This photo taken in April 14,2012 at Chop & Steak Serdang.
The steak set got the beans he hate and the meat he love. >_<

X

Just realize that X-Japan's Forever Love is the ending theme for X-1999(anime by CLAMP). No wonder sounds faniliar. X anime is really a nice anime, just that maybe it doesn't really entertaining cuz its a serious anime, no sense of humour at all(for me la xD) however it still an anime with very touching ending. I suggest those anime hardcore fans should really watch this anime, or maybe at least its manga. The anime's CG was actually quite nice if compared to other anime released around year 1999. *T^T* And it even have its movie version, with X japan's forever love~~~

(cry and cry)

Ｘ－One of the coolest anime I've ever watch,and sometimes the story can't really be understand by kids audience.

Craving for food

Recently my stomach keep yelling for food. I have no idea why the craving level increases over the time, but as a wise owner of this scumbag stomach, I need to have self control !!! Oh yeah~~~

Affordable burger and delicious too !!!

Maybe later will buy a burger for myself. Hopefully the burger stall in front of KTHO will open la~ Want to eat burger :)

The regretful hatred

I can stand for everything, included jog every day,
but I just can't, can't stand for someone keep bad mouth about something.
Even whenever my mum trying to express her unsatisfied feeling about neighbor, relatives, or whatsoever, I will get angry sometime. I know that she just want to "luahkan perasaan", but the way, and frequency, makes me suffocated, even whenever my friends bad mouth about other people, I feel bad, really bad. I try my best not to be like them, so everytime I bad mouth about my friend, I just say it like a joke, just a while, and then i stop. Just, I hate people who KEEP talking and talking and talking and talking about the same old story, don't you feel tired? I once, maybe more than once, asked my mum:" Awak tak rasa letih ke asyik cakap pasal diaorang?Saya rasa letih nak dengar.Awak cakap banyak kali bukannya mereka berubah pun.Kenapa setiap kali kat depan mereka tak langsung cakap?" Sounds rude? Hmm, thats me. Yeap, apa-apa pun terus cakap bukan lagi senang? tak payah nak bazir air liur nak cakap pasal benda yang tak suka. Ulang pasal benda yang awak tak akan pergi ubah. Maybe you will say: "kita kena jaga hati orang~" Cheh, asyik jaga hati jaga hati, habis tu siapa yang nak jaga hati kita? Antara reason kenapa kita tak perlu jaga sangatlah hati diaorang sebab, in the first place you get annoyed sebab mereka lah yang tak jaga hati awak bukan?

Lagi, kenapa nak sangat buatkan sendiri susah hati atau berdendam kerana orang lain yang tak kisah pun perasaan awak? Tak rugi ke? Kesian jantung ngan otak asyik kena depression. Tak lama mati la tu, apa kata hidup gembira sikit? At least, jangan susah hati kerana orang lain. Kalau susah hati sebab saudara dapat cancer tu tak apa, lebih berbaloi untuk sedih.

Mungkin jugak sebab saya ni memang seorang yang tak simpan dendam, saya akan marah tentang sesuatu, tapi saya tak akan marah lama. Tapi ini tidak bermaksud saya akan lupakannya, saya bukan komputer yang dapat delete terus benda tu dari ingatan, ingat tetap akan ingat, tapi saya akan cuba lupakan kecuali ada sesuatu yang menyebabkan saya pergi ungkitnya. Saya sentiasa akan cari kebaikan orang/organisasi tersebut. Semua benda di dunia ini tak akan hanya ada one side of good/evil, semua mesti ada yang baik ada yang jahat. Remind yourself about their good side, even though it's just tiny tiny little thing, but at least it will make you feel better. For example, I hate that XXXXX company, but then XXXXX company was the one who let me have chance to met you, because of this my life is better. If not because of it, now my life will be sucks, therefore I glad about it and now I will not bother about that dem company as it didn't affect me anyway. This is me. Just me. Because I faced too many "hatred" in my life, thats why I hate it. The most sad hatred was towards my own father, because my mom was always keep talking about the bad side of him, plant the seed in my heart, it grows. Even though my father was very sayang me, but then, still I hated him. I loved him more than my mum, was. Anyway, the "hatred tree" just withered along the time, after my father passed away. The most regretful thing was that, I refused to see his face, to talk with him, even to eat what he bought for me before he left. the house for the last time.

          

Chinese mee curry and "buah berangan" .
The two foods that my late father bought for me for last, but I didn't eat it.
Everytime I will think about him whenever I see these,
especially the buah berangan, cuz I threw it in dustbin.
A "sorry" that can't reach him now. 

This sunday will be mooncake festival, remembered my father used to brought back BIG BOXES of mooncakes ( I even remember the brand: OverSea. 海外天) . This should be a happy memory, but then my parents fought again because of the mooncakes was too many and we can't finish it, even give away to neighbors that we don't really know( should be a good deed wasn't it?). Haiz, adult always fight fight fight fight fight, hey you out there, never shows your hatred in front of a child, even he/she just 4 yrs old or less, they WILL remember it.

Anyway, Selamat pesta tanglung/ Happy mooncake festival/zhong qiu jie kuai le 中秋节快乐。Even though the family is not round and complete like the full moon, life still goes on. Appreciate what we have now is more important than anything.

Third Year In UKM

9 Sept - Today is my brother's 27th birthday. Happy birthday Gor Gor !
No chance to see him come back to Serdang cuz I need to go to UKM for new semester preparation.

This is my brother Marzuki AJ Chung. ^^
He belanja me n mummy to buka puasa at PappaRich few days b4 raya 2012.

Nowadays me n my bro get along quite well compared to old times, and I believe our sibling bond will get stronger !

Anyway, I left my hamster Himawari at home, cuz I got a big luggage to bring and its quite troublesome to get on bus and stairs. Miss you Himawari T^T Are you eating well? I will buy barley and sunflower seed for you ya？

Himawari eating kuaci. =3

10 Sept - Overnight in the same room as last semester so not really a problem for me anymore, I know where to hang my things, put my stuffs and with the ULTIMATE toilet in room so I get ready for my 8am class in the speed of light! Haha. New semester, new challenge! Some of my friend will be new semester, old challenge, but will face it with new attitude I believe. xD Come On~ ROCK OUT !

11 Sept - Tired day cuz walk here n there to settle quite a few things. Excitingly, my loved one come to UKM today, hope he will do well :) Wish all the best for him. *Pray hard* By the way, he set out an "RR plan" for me. hehe. The first task for me is to sleep by 1 am every day. =D hoho Tonight we have mapley session after so long. Miss everyone so much~ >_<

Wish everyone have a brilliant semester, and try our best to perform better, much much better! Never regret the days, cuz we definite hardly restart it.

Puasa

So it's been a week from the first Ramadhan.
Tomorrow morning mid term exam for International Business, in my head still as always.. food food food, hamster, anime, food food food, and a bit about the subject here and there. xD
Good luck for myself la ! LOL.

Never forget...

Never forget that,

Pau !

Right now everything in my mind is
1) How to pau my boyfriend since he says gonna treat me a meal, so I can choose anything to eat loh !
2) The 3.30pm exam later,still got 3 hours more !Hahhahaha!


p/s: for anyone who donno what is pau (not the chinese pau) here is sabah dialek refer to peras ugut or samun xD

Secondhand Serenade - Fall for you

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you i'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may of failed

But I have loved you from the start

Ohhhh

But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in

I'm yours to keep

And hold onto your words

Cuz talk is cheap

And remember me tonight

When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

- First time listen to this song tonight and fall for it -

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again...

There's still another 4 days to ICAF.

Means, there's still another 4 days too, to my UBS exam.

Hope I can get credit it, get my UBS certificate ! Need to win ! Need to win !

Come on girl, you can do it !

 It was the super moon I saw days back. I mentioned it many times with my dear cuz its really pretty. Haha. But I didn't know it called as super moon. Why not Sailor Moon? XD

Good night everyone. ^__^

Today I met my best buddy - HC at Mines. Last time saw her was when my birthday 13th April, well, not really long time ago actually. It can be long in other way, I mean if its the 15 years old Rohani surely will say: aiyo long time didn't see HC ledi(just 2 weeks). I used to see her everyday, and talk to her everyday. We were very close, well now we are still very close, in terms of mentally and soul. Nowadays really hard to have a friend like this anymore, even we parted but still cling to each others heart. 

By the way,she said she just back from Astro interview session, so let wish her best of luck to get a new job environment la ya !(Same goes to my sister,hope her can get a better job soon!) Suddenly have a thought: maybe God want us to met because we so long time didn't sweet sweet already ! haha.

We not same colour but we are best friend!

_________________________________________________________________________


Today date with him, I can't recall this is the Nth time we have official date. Sometimes we would have twice official date monthly or just have monthly date. Heehe. Now already May, once entered 23th then it should be half a year already. 6 months, how fast the time had passed isn't it? And today for the first time(?) you start the topic of "future", well usually I'm the one who start it first ain't ya? This makes me feel.. well.. seems like my dear really worry about it. I know usually even you were worried about many things you wont tell me cuz you keep it insides you. 
For the time being, just like I told you, don't worry too much, everything will be fine. Just do what we can, okay? There is no relationship that insured 100% it will stay until the end of the world even after marriage. Well, just pray to Lord Allah that everything will be nice enough for us! Just like all those green traffic lights we've been through in the day- during the process we might urge to get to the green lights, but when we go farther, the red one just shines before us, got annoyed might be, but then- slow down little bit, just keep the engine keep moving steadily... and ta-daaa! Its green again !

Sometimes you just need to have patience and slow down a little bit

when this flash means "No" to you

until you see the lovely green say "Go".

Jia you !

Anything happen, we shall be together. Even just mentally, its enough for me to go through all the bad days.
And, I will be on your side, to turns all those bad day you have , into those memorable and sweet fine days. :)
I don't know what will happen in the future,
but in this moment, I love you.

给我自己的一首歌

How can I love you not?

It was a moody day for me though not in the "period" of the month. Something was bothering me and I really can't get it through. Totally depressed and really need someone to .. to... I don't know..I just need someone. And there he is, my love. If I used to be alone, used to get stressed alone, used to depressed alone ; now I have him. I'm no more a lone ranger, cuz I know he's there for me.

He know that I was sad, he tried his best to cheer me up, brought me to a new place to have meal, asked me where I want to go and flip over whole bangi and kajang just to find a see-saw that I want to ride on. Eventhough we can't find one but his effort already swing away my gloomy feel in this little heart. Anyway we did get to a park and we met a really interesting auntie and a like-to-meow cat. The auntie told us many things included the story of suicide couple at the park happened years ago. Interesting.

At night, he found out that I have only biscuits and cereal drinks for dinner (for me the meal is enough though >_<) , he went to buy McD's porridge for me, and the "bye-bye fever" gel sheets for me. The moment I got those things actually I feel guilty in the same time felt so loved. So touched and almost make this cry baby shed a touched-tears. If I eat properly and take my medicine then he wouldn't have this much problem, ouwhh, sorry darling. Dear,I will listen to you and no more next time hopefully. well, instead of worrying me how bout you take good care of yourself also? Your backpain always make me worry and today you have sorethroat and cold?! T_T


Thank you for everything you've done, sacrifices you've made and,


I love you.

Ni Hao !

Recently he is learning Chinese. Quite amazed by his effort and talent. Good job! Good job! Jia you~ Usually people tend to learn little bit and then quit, hope he can stay until can converse with me la~~ Hahahhahha~ Bao bei! Jia you jia you~ Wo ai ni o~~ <3

My favourite idol since ten years ago- Jay Chou. A sweet and lovely song ^^

Sin

If all the sin cannot be excused,
I shall be punished and damned for the the action I took.
But somehow, I still seek for forgiveness.
I'm sorry.
And I love you.

From the book [crime and punishment],
Marmeladov once said: "I ought to be crucified, crucified on a cross, not pitied! Crucify me, oh judge, crucify me but pity me!"

Heart Attack

My heart skips a beat.
When you hold my hand.


My heart skips a beat.
When you hug me tightly.


My heart skips a beat.
When you kiss my cheek.


And it follows by beating faster but in a cool way.
Mind blank for a sec.


Heart Attack. <3





So come on, spin me around
I don’t wanna go home
Cause when you hold me like this
you know my heart skips, skips a beat
I know I should, but I can’t leave it alone
And when you hold me like this
that’s when my heart skips, skips a beat
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh oh! oh oh oh!

ubareru

Rain. Rain. Rain.

Still remember ?

Sacrificer will decides.

Who?

TOO OLD WANT TOOTH ( 2.0.1.2.)

2012.
There are approximately another 4 months before little me to be announced as an adult, officially. *sweat* I still remember 10 years ago I was dreaming that I would have my own career, my own car, my own house by the age of 21. Hah ! At that time, honestly university life had never across my mind and I think that was really fine. Guess where I am now. 


God saves the best. Alhamdulillah.


I still remember 7 years ago I promised myself to get married by age of 21 ( 21 again ? 0.O ) I even do the countdown everytime the fireworks of new year lights up the sky. Naive, yes I am. But then after my sister get married at the age of 19 ( I was 14 )  my mom warn me not to get married too early. I was like (=_=) ok. I will get married after 28, how's that? My mom just silent and ...( can't remember her face expression ).
Well what I'm trying to say is, no one can ever predict their future right? But there's nothing wrong to plan it though the future might not going according to the plan, but hey, God saves the best for last, and for everyone who prayed and worked hard for it.


Anyway, everyone have their own life, no one shall ever plan or predict other's. As simple as gossiping are actually forcing other to live in your way of life, isn't it? For example, a bunch of fella keep gossip bout this Anonymous bout her dressing, her religion, her faith, her bla bla bla. But the fact is in the past they never come across her life nor even have single relation with her, why the hell those fella want to gossip bout her? Its not like badmouth her will bring any fortune right? Why bother?


When you predict something to supposed happen in YOUR way, somehow it turns out doesn't. Will you keep blaming others? Will you stand up and speak whats in your freaky brain? I don't really care, as long as you don't block other people's way, including mine. Hey come on, if you just speak out your mind without bringing up any solution to the problem, I mean- a solution for win-win situation.You can just back off to your own cave and shut your fucking mouth off. Stop ruining other's day. Think its cool to be in the news? Just another waste of motherEarth's source.


The two paragraphs above are dedicated to those who not helping to bring a better world and almost drive me crazy although I always try to play blind and deaf regarding sensitive issues.


Still, 2012 is another year for me to see the world through children's eyes, world of imagination,so simple and beautiful while play my  minute-tiny-negligible part to make  a better world for everyone. As long as the kid haven't died from the infection of dirty political  and web-based gossiping sickness. Amin.

I used to hold a magnifying glass(w/o holder actually xD) to look at everything. to make everything look bigger !

I still rmb thaT i asked permission from my ma to "siram pokok"
when i was kid, of course just wear slippers or barefoot,
unlike the illustration above xD
I thought that the plant can grow faster by "drinking" lots n lots of water! ^_^

Suddenly, I think that I might actually running away from the fact I've grown up.

..... Am I ?