Yesterday

Yesterday

28.12.2015

My best friend's birthday,

celebrated on 20th Dec.

Yesterday

28.12.2015

First time had Sukiya with him,

nice meal, nice lunch.

Dessert.

There is something I always wanted to hear,

something that every lady dreamt of.

Just like first kiss.

Happened, but not yet happen..




*To be continue*

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah I have finished my final semester and waiting for results and convocation, insyaAllah.
Alhamdulillah, after final exam I had my first trip to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah with my sister and mother.
Alhamdulillah, no accidents happen during my 3 days drive in KK Sabah, even I drove in rain during the way to Kinabalu park and Kundasang. The road is quite "lenggang lenggok"!
Alhamdulillah, no big argument happen during KK trip, as I had expected somehow we will argue. LOL
Alhamdulillah, the trip was very fun and memorable.
Alhamdulillah, bought some seafood back home.
Alhamdulillah, both of them are happy with the trip and wish to go there again in future.
Alhamdulillah, Allah has widen rezeki for me in this Ramadhan month.

Alhamdulillah. :)

Here I am

Here I am.
Right here.
Still keep going.
Keep trying.
A bit.
Not losing the smile.
Yet.

KY, me , HC - birthday celebration (13/4/2014)

First Forever21 bag from them ^o^

Me and my beautiful sister. =D
p/s: went to visits her at workplace hehee

Sunshine Putrajaya with someone special ^_^

Happy new year again!

Well finally I finished up my 6 months internship at here.
In these 6 months, I had my first surgery in Hospital Serdang, just like the previous posts that I promised(or not) to tell a magnificent story about me having my un-erupt wisdom tooth plucked. muahaha.
after 5 months the I have a monster teeth came out now. Its hard to understand what I'm telling you cuz without visual effects hah..Maybe next time? haha.

Bye ! See you next year whoever-read-this ! hahahahahhahah

I wish upon the fireworks

Happy 19th Monthversary a.k.a 1 year 7 months.

Tonight I am so happy. So glad you still patiently hear my problems, still stood by my side, still holding my hands, still trying and trying to make me smile. I'm a lucky girl.

Tonight I feel so loved. Thank you for this feeling. It feels great =)

I wish upon the beautiful fireworks.

May it comes true,

Space

Usually I wont be very close with someone. But once we are close, I wont leave you, I dont want to leave you, I scare to leave you, I even scare to have the thought of leaving you my friend.

Damn, I'm screwed.

Did I forgot how in the first place I hate to be close with other people? Because I will hurt others, and they will hurt me too. I hate it, very very much.

There will always a space between us, that we both can't reach each other. Never.

Appointment di hospital serdang

Pagi tadi habis saja exam Iskandar teman saya pergi PK untuk ambil surat rujukan dari dentist. Lepas tu kami pergi lunch di kafe Zaba. Kafe Zaba memang tak ramai orang, yang makan di sana pun tak lebih 10 orang, tapi ramai gadis2 tapao makanan mereka la. Mungkin sebab keadaan kafe yang tak seberapa menarik?

Petang pula minta Wann hantar saya pergi Hospital Serdang. Kali pertama pergi hospital, baru ada feeling "ooo~~". Susah cari parking dan prosedur rawatan sangat leceh. Kaunter di unit pembedahan mulut memang tepat pukul 2pm baru mereka balik dari lunch. Mentang2 la patient sakit gigi boleh bertahan~ Tunjuk surat referal dengan mereka, baru nak buat appointment first - check up gigi pertama dengan doktor. Dah la kena tunggu sampai 9 Julai~~~~Hari ni 18 Jun. Kiranya kena tunggu 3 minggu juga la~ Ahh~~~ time tu dah start LI, malas pula nak minta cuti bagainya. Saya bukan jenis pekerja yang senang minta cuti, sbb rasa sangat sangat sangat sangat bersalah kalau skip sehari pun. Tapi kawan kawan kata tak apa, nanti boleh minta MC. hmmm... Ni baru appointment first, belum yg second lagi. Nak tunggu sampai bila baru cabut gigi geraham ni ar?~~ SSSTTTRRREESSSS~ tapi tadi abang tu kata kalau siap2 ada rekod X ray lagi senang. Hmm. nanti2 la cuba tanya dentist PK boleh tak bagi film xray gigi tu kat saya... ataupun buat lagi xray whole mulut. lagi senang.

Apa-apa pun, akibat dari ke-stres-an dapat tahu hari appointment lama lagi, rasa sakit gigi tu surut pula. Mungkin otak saya bagitahu: tak yah la tunggu lama sangat, ni hah dah sembuh tak rasa sakit dah!
Gitu kot..

Nanti masa balik rumah bagitahu kat mak la, macam mana. Rasanya mak mesti suruh pergi je...lama pun lama la... Nasib, tak sanggup keluarkan duit ratus ratus untuk cabut gigi di klinik swasta. T^T Dah la beberapa hari lepas baru dapat surat PTPTN. Meskipun saya penerima JPA, duit JPA tinggal ciput je. Nak bayar RM4,750 tu tak lepas. Nanti sebelum LI nak bawa motor kapcai saya pergi service lagi~ Motor Yamaha Sport tu lagi saya expect nak bawa pergi tempat kerja tiap2 hari. Tak tau dia mampu lagi ke tak. Ahhh~~ Risau2~ Cuma harap saya tak terlibat dalam eksiden lagi dah la. Amin. Cukup la dengan banyak kesan parut di kaki2, di tangan, di pinggang. Ada orang kata tambah satu parut maka turun 10% kemungkinan nak kahwin nanti. Fulamak~kira2 memang 100% tu tolak sampai nilai negatif saja. Kahwin dengan bangla pula nanti. Choi choi choi!

Apa2 pun, semoga hari2 berikut dapat dilalui dengan lancar. Semoga exam ok, semoga LI ok, semoga poket duit ok, semoga kekasih saya ok, semoga thesis kekasih saya ok, semoga semua semua semua semuaaaaanya okay. Amin Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. ^_^

Sakit gigi geraham/bongsu + Ulcer

Time exam macam ni lah sakit gigi. Lepas check gigi kat Pusat kesihatan UKM hari tu, doktor gigi X-ray kan part yang saya kata sakit tu. Rupa2nya gigi bongsu/wisdom tooth saya tumbuh dengan melanggar gigi depannya, doktor kata PK takda kepakaran untuk cabut gigi macam ini, so kena pergi rujuk pakar di hospital..

X-ray yang saya nampak macam gini jugak la rupanya keadaan gigi bongsu tu memberontak.

Dengar2je kecut hati. heh heh. Doktor PK ini sikit2 je asyik kata kena buat minor surgery.

Hari tu saya pergi check gigi bongsu saya yang sebelah kanan bawah, doktor kata nak senang cabut je. =_=" . Tapi saya kata tak payah la cabut, bukan sakit pun, cuma ganggu sebab ada lubang antara gigi bongsu ngan gigi depan, setiap kali makan mesti sangkut makanan.

Kali ni bahagian kiri atas pula... memang dah kena cabut la ni. Nanti nak tanya la kat dentist, boleh tak cabut dua-dua sekali? Hmm kalau boleh saya nak cabut sekali gus ke empat-empat gigi bongsu so nanti takda la nak cabut banyak kali. leceh. Tapi kan, gigi bonsu belah kiri bawah macam tak tumbuh lagi. So rasa nak tanya doktor lagi,mmg dia tak nak tumbuh atau kena surgery kerat sikit daging gusi bagi dia tumbuh. Lagi, cabut gigi kat hospital kerajaan berapa ar? Saya punya la gigih google semua benda yang berkaitan, ada orang kata RM23 yang untuk bius sepenuhnya. Sebab risau mahal, ada kawan cabut gigi(minor surgery +bius +complication gigi juga) di klinik swasta dekat Rm650+ , ada yang cecah RM800. Mak aih. Mahal gila. Ok, macam banyak soalan pula kena tanya doktor lagi.. ah. catat catat!

Hari tu lepas kena x-ray,dentist "paksa" saya gigit kepingan besi, pastu besi tu punya la tajam kena lelangit saya, sekarang ada ulcer pula. Aduh pedih weyh. Ulcer di dinding tepi mulut okay lagi, ni kat lelangit, nak telan air liur pun sakit. T^T

Ni hah. Ok, nampak hodoh sikit.
Dalam bulatan hitam tu la ulcer yang paling pedih saya pernah dapat. Siap berdarah lagi semasa saya cuba nak ludah/gosok gigi sebab tertarik muscle lelangit.
Bulatan hijau, punca kesakitan utama!

Doktor kata nanti bila2 masa ambil surat rujukan dari PK untuk bawa pergi hospital.. Hmm. Maksudnya still kena buat appointment ke tak hah? -_- wuuu wuuuu~~~ T^T

Stay tune. Akan update nanti apa jadi dengan proses cabut gigi bongsu ni. *nangis*

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Insecure makes me want to be better.
So afraid that I'm gonna lose myself one day.
The happy me,
the carefree me,
the creative me,
the imaginative me,
the outgoing me.

Selamat Hari Ibu

Mak kesayangan, saya, dan sepupu Rony di Ladang Epal Kota Batu,Malang, Surabaya Indonesia.

Saya akan sentiasa doa untuk mak dan akan cari banyak banyak duit dan bawa mak jalan2 lagi. =)
InsyaAllah.

Keluarga saya dari kecil jenis yang tidak akan luahkan perasaan sayang dengan ahli keluarga sendiri. Segala "sayang" akan diluahkan melalui perbuatan, contohnya beli barang untuk ahli keluarga, tolong buat ini itu. Haha. Jadi lain kali kalau saya ada anak, saya nak ajar anak saya jadi jenis yang pandai kata I love you ngan ahli keluarga sendiri, haha. I love you kena kata, tapi perbuatan sayang-menyayangi tu mesti juga kena ada.

=)

Lumajang, Surabaya Preview !

So ! I went to Surabaya, Indonesia last semester break. Which, the exact date was from 19 January until 31 January. I know, I know, you guys must be wondering why I took so long to update my blog about it. Well, first, because right after I came back to Malaysia, I don't have internet connection at home, and I'm not the type of person who willing to type a blog entry offline first, and then upload it whenever he can. Well I do have a friend who always do the draft in Microsoft word and then only she will publish it. The reason? She say its to prevent all her "work" gone while in the process of typing it.

Anyway, back here! I actually made the booking of flight about a year ago - 28 March 2012, yeah right, so long~ As I needed to find the exact date of flight with promotion to match my holiday. Well you know, as a student you don't really want to miss your classes, exams or even assignments just because of a personal trip aite?

This is the payment item:
Flight
2 Guest                                                 RM 68
Airport Tax                                             RM 64
Fuel Surcharge                                        RM 104
Sub Total                                              RM 236
Services & Fees
2 x Check-In Baggage - up to 15 kg            RM 60
1 x Check-In Baggage - up to 20 kg            RM 35
2 x SKYB                                              RM 28.80
Sub Total                                               RM 123.80
Total Amount                                   RM 359.80 FOR 2 PERSON (RM 179.90/pax)

Well, its quite cheap already, since I'm the one who wanted to belanja my mum, so I try to save as much as possible, and I know when we go to Indonesia, we won't go with just hand luggage, haha. While, when we come back Malaysia, I think maybe just one person with 20kg check in baggage will be enough(I take my mum's luggage calculate as mine). And luckily, after I calculate weigh and estimate our luggage using the new bathroom scale I bought(lolx), our check in luggage were just 11kg and 14kg respectively, awesome right ! And when we come back Malaysia, my luggage was just 18 kg ! Muahahhaha. Feel great when no need to pay for compound ~ v(^^)

And since I was not sure whether my brother or sister have time to send us to LCCT, I bought Sky Bus ticket too beforehand, as its cheaper (RM7.20/way compared to RM9). Ya I know, I calculate every single cent ! Don't blame me cuz I try to make an economic travel cost for my mum and I ~ All hail to AirAsia, usually without promotion one person will charged about RM 500 + for two ways !

Oh yeah, I have my first passport done 2 months right before the date of departure. Since there is an immigration nearby UKM, I decided to go there. Surprise with the fast and efficient officer at there, I manage to get my passport just within hours, with RM 100 payment for 2 years validity time~

Tadaa~~ My official passport photo ! xD

Next entry I'll write about my first memory with LCCT ! Tata~

Nostalgic

When I was in elementary school, I used to memorize the lyrics merely by listening many times. Then my sister scolded me cuz I spent my time to memorize song lyrics and not reading my text books. Hhaaha.

[Slam Dunk], the anime/manga that super popular at once upon a time. The singer of this song suppose be Oguro Maki- a women, but then dono why sounds like a male? *blur*

[Fruit Basket], the singer already passed away in year 2004. 3 years after she released this single.

Nasi Goreng Ikan Masin

Semalam naik tangga yang nak pergi bilik Ismeth dari arah blok K3A, khusyuk tengok kaki sendiri tak perasan ada family kucing kat hadapan. Terkejut jap, tapi hati kembali berbunga sebab mereka comel sangat. Haha. Eh, ada orang bagi makan nasi goreng ikan masin. memang sebungkus yang masih baru dibeli. Wah, bagusnya orang tu, tak tau lelaki atau perempuan, tapi instinct bagitau saya orang tu perempuan. Apa-apa pun, mama kucing makan nasi goreng ikan masin dengan anak-anak, dengan muka puas(?). xD hari tu anak-anak kucing ada 5 ekor, tapi semalam tengok,tinggal 3 ekor. Mungkin dah di-adopt? Tak tau la. Semoga mereka berbahagia. Miao.

Ring

Nope, definitely not influenced by Lord of the Ring nor The Hobbit.
All these time I always wanted a ring, especially after lost the one given by my mum, which its given by her tauke, a souvenir from Korea. While seeing all the girls around me especially those girls that have boyfriend, they all have a ring, though not sure its cheap ring or not, its given by their boyfriend or not, but the fact is, they all have ring. So, I want too.

Two days ago went to south city, saw one of the tapak jualan there have sell pretty rings, and its really cheap. So I bought one for myself. =D I don't want to ask my boyfriend to buy one ring for me, and I don't have the patience to wait him to buy one for me. With my own money own effort, I give myself a ring. I won't tell anyone about its price, cuz I want it to looked more expensive than its price. ^^ And in front of people I wont tell that I bought it myself, cuz normally people will guess its a gift from my bf, so be it. Why he didnt want to buy a ring for me when I want it so bad? Haha, maybe I didnt tell him? Or maybe he simply dont want to buy. Or maybe, leave it to imaginations, maybe. ^^ Suddenly remember the scene where Mr Bean's gf want a ring as Xmas present but end up getting hook in a ring's box. xD

This ring really make me feel happy. ^_____^ . Haha. Well woman likes shiny little thing(vampire is not little shiny thing though) ^^

My Precious ! My Precious! xD

2013 Calendar (Malaysia)

2013 is just around the corner, you might having some trouble to get free calendar when you buy something from the shops in these days. Well, unlike the old time, now we have internet, where to get a calendar is not a problem anymore. As a substitute to those horse racing calendar, a simple one might come in handy too!

You can download from the link here:
there is two version of it, slightly different to suit my own taste actually xD
2013 desk calendar(1)
2013 desk calendar(2)
or you can edit one on your own at time and date's website.

Not to forget, HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

Purpose

Few days back someone ask me to try apply the conference trip to Osaka, Japan that going to held in next year around April. Minimum requirement of course the basic pointer thing. Well, ya I know my accumulated pointer for time being still slightly above 3. Well just slightly above, thats all. He added:" you can speak and read chinese, so it would be advantage for you to go there." Tempted, really.

Actually, Japan indeed is my dream country to visit since decade ago. One of the attractive point I enter Uni was also the chance to be exchange student or even have chance to visit other country that everyone dream to. I already forget the dream since long, and after know the real expenditure(though mostly the trip is sponsored), it just demotivated me. Ya, I know, if nobody sponsor, then you yourself have to find yourself a sponsor. And even if there's already sponsor, still, you will need about one thousand plus to pay this and that which I don't know what's that. Even before you step there, few hundreds to thousand ringgit already spent, for a person like me, without support from family, where I have to fully depends on JPA scholarships and some part time job to live on, I really rather to give that chance away.

With that hundreds to thousand ringgit, I can take my beloved mum to a nice dinner, buy her some supplement and will able to put a shower heater in the shower room which my brother promised to put one but never. Furthermore, that sum of money I can use as my installment to buy my first car or even house in the future. Sigh. Last time my mum even say she want to try take driving license in Malaysia so that she can drive motor / car legally. Well, if few years back I would say to her: "no need la..., here many auntie2 uncle2 also dont have license.." or " it would be difficult to pass the computer test if you didnt study and read and click the mouse speedly(my mum click mouse very slow one, I taught her before)" See? You must think I'm such a bad daughter, how could I discourage my own mum to do things she want? Well, that was past, now since she have nothing to do at home, and even start to work at factory, she can earn more money than spend it, so I just say: "Ma, you just whatever that you want to do la ok." As a daughter I learnt that this time I should act like she did - like how she let me do everything I want since kids. She never say: tak payah la buat ni, nanti.. (negative thing). Except one, she didn't let me to join pancaragam team like my sis did. Cuz she know she'll tired to send me to training and pick me up middle of the nite(training usually end very late).

Ok, well back to the story, the purpose. The original purpose I want to go to other country, simply have a walk, be a tourist, take some picture, eat some rare food, see and communicate with foreign citizen. I still can accomplish it without need to join the conference/exchange student programme. In future after I work, I can have my own money, buy tickets from AirAsia, arrange my timetable, fly to another country~ Ok, some might say, if I have the experience during my student life, it might colours up my resume. Haha, its okay. Really, its okay. Of course somewhere deep in my heart, I will say, I really want to go. If given a chance who don't want? Anyway, I don't need that kind of glamour now. Not now.

Anyway, I already bought two tickets to Surabaya many months ago. Will fly to my mum's kampung next month. =) Not for conference/academic activity, but to relax myself and make my mum happy. How great will that be~ I went to Indonesia once only, that time I was in standard one, in the year 1998, ya I know economic crisis that time, but somehow that's the last luxurious life of my family, with my late father. After that trip everything just fall apart. Nevermind lets skip it. =) Hopefully this coming trip will go smoothly and will have safe journey during two weeks there. Oh ya, will see my family there, maybe you guys don't know, I have another sister there, biologically, she is the anak sulung of my mum, the kakak of my big brother. Means actually I have 4 siblings, I'm the 4th! In my memory of 8 years old, she's very tall and have very fair skin. She have two daughter, means actually total up I have 3 niece, 1 nephew. And I think the eldest girl- Cindy already about 13 or 14 years old. WOW~ XD

Ah, can't wait.

Saw this when hang clothes

 

Actually I have this clothes since secondary school. Surprise when saw the "kooki" sounds and pronounce almost the same as the "kookie~" of Kim Joong Kok in Running Man~ (^^)/

想念

好想好想你

好想看到你

好想握着你的手

好想跟你在一起

好想不用在意他人眼光，紧紧握着你，继续抱着你，深深吻着你

好想跟你一起浪走天涯，享受自由，拥有世界。

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